Saturday, November 13, 2010

A Message from the Universe?

Yesterday morning, as I walked to the train, I turned a corner and found myself looking at this:


It's partly painted over now, but you can still see that the graffiti said "SKUD." A.k.a., the first four letters of my last name. A very unusual combination of letters for the English language.

It was very disconcerting to see this on a wall just a little way from my house. I couldn't help wondering if the Universe was trying to tell me something. Will have to keep an eye out for this graffiti tag in future.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Damn The Torpedos, I'm Doing NaPlWriMo

  • In 2007, I signed up for NaPlWriMo, didn't play by the rules (I had already started working on the play before November 1) and didn't end up finishing it that month, either.
  • In 2008, I signed up for NaPlWriMo, worked on a play that I thought I should be writing (a family drama with an all-female cast) rather than what I actually wanted to write. Well, I don't know what I wanted to write in 2008, but it wasn't that. Plus I had just moved to SF, I was lonely, I didn't have any artistic friends, and was living in a house that reeked of anti-intellectualism.
  • In 2010... I'm signing up for NaPlWriMo again. Yes, even though I only began my play last night and am thus working with a major handicap (75 pages in 22 days, not 75 pages in 30 days). And even though I have a busy November in front of me: plays to see, other blog posts I want to write, a personal life that I want to live and then record in my diary! But I want to write this play, too. After a year in which I worked only on short pieces, I am looking forward to writing a full-length that represents where I am now as a writer. After all, my last full-length was completed 2.5 years ago!
I probably should be telling myself, for motivational purposes, "Marissa, you WILL make it to 75 pages, no doubt about it!" But of course I have my doubts. Nonetheless, if I have even 45 or 50 pages by the end of the month, I will be a happy writer.

As for the play itself, it's a modern, mildly sci-fi interpretation (e.g. it's sci-fi in the sense that Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind is sci-fi) of an old legend... but it is NOT an Olympians Festival play. And that's all I'm going to say for now.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Playwrights in Person, part 1: Brooke Berman

Over the last couple of weeks I've seen a few playwrights in person--I mean you-may-have-heard-of-these-people playwrights, East Coast-based, award-winning, establishment playwrights--so I'm going to do a little series of blog posts about these encounters.

First up: Brooke Berman. Over the summer, Terry Teachout raved about Brooke's new memoir No Place Like Home, and even though I was not familiar with any of Brooke's plays, I vowed to check it out--because there aren't a lot of firsthand accounts of what it's like to be a young, female playwright, struggling to make great art at the same time you're struggling to just figure out LIFE. So, when Brooke Berman did a promotional reading at the downtown San Francisco Borders last month, I made sure to attend and buy a copy of the memoir.

The reading was sparsely attended, which enabled me to introduce myself to Brooke and chat with her for a bit. (Also, because Brooke was 7.5 months pregnant, that gave me the opportunity to tell her that I had just had a short play produced about a pregnant woman who craves a beer!) She read the opening pages of the memoir, as well as a brief passage about a summer when she drove cross-country with her boyfriend and ended up, broke, in San Francisco--then signed copies of her book.

I began reading No Place Like Home on my East Coast trip--which was perfect, because it is a New York book. Most of the "39 apartments" described in the book's subtitle are in New York City, and Brooke writes with an evocative sense of place, reserving particular affection for downtown, bohemian Manhattan. The memoir grew out of a New York Times article about Brooke's peripatetic life; the different living situations provide the backdrop to a coming-of-age story.

It's a hard-won coming of age, brought about by much struggle--partly because being a young New York artist often means scraping by on very little money in tiny apartments, and partly because Brooke had at least two instances of really bad luck. (When she was 24, someone broke into her apartment and raped her; later, a roommate got leukemia and made her move out of a beautiful loft apartment.) I was put in the weird position of thinking that, compared to Brooke's, my life as a young female artist has been pretty stable... and wondering if I too am "cruising for a bruising." Or, alternatively, wondering if I should live my life with a little more risk and daring, even if that would mean giving up this stability.

No Place Like Home is meant for a "general" audience, for people who can relate to Brooke's story of being a young woman and finding her way. Therefore, it doesn't contain as much information as a geek like me would desire about the specifics of playwriting, or Brooke's opinions about the theater. For instance, Brooke pretty much glosses over her two years of schooling at Juilliard. Or, according to the New York Times article, Brooke once worked as playwright Maria Irene Fornes' assistant--but Fornes is never mentioned in the memoir. Indeed, because Brooke has to cover so many years and so many apartments in 250 pages, it sometimes feels like a lot of stuff has been left out. The entire book is written at a dogged "and then this happened and then this happened and then this happened" pace, so that sometimes it is hard to keep track of just which of these years, and these apartments, are most important to Brooke's story.

Still, there are some good insights into the playwright's or artist's life. I loved Brooke's comment "My job is to create a world that other people can live inside of--without me. It feels like my housing: entering a space, making it my own, and then leaving it to someone else's care. Leaving an imprint, then moving on." Or, when she says of a friend, "He understands how my plays are put together and why, which is like understanding how I'm put together and why," I just thought yes, exactly.

One other thing that No Place Like Home made me realize is how my life has been lacking in a spiritual dimension lately. Throughout the memoir, Brooke talks about how she has been helped by yoga, meditation, New Age philosophy, and other spiritual practices. I realized that I spend a lot of time alone, and yet, I don't spend enough time taking care of myself, being good to myself. I am privileged to have a peaceful and stable home, and yet my room is always a mess! Wouldn't I be happier if I lived in a tidy room, if I finally hung pictures on my walls, if I tried to cultivate my spiritual side and not just my intellectual/artistic side? It is something to think about... and San Francisco will clearly welcome me with open arms if I want to look further into spirituality.

Monday, November 1, 2010

Additions to the Blogroll -- November

  • Brooke's Blog, written by playwright and memoirist Brooke Berman, whom I met two weeks ago and whose book No Place Like Home: A Memoir in 39 Apartments, I just finished reading. (More on this later.)
  • Restricted View, the blog of Mollie Wilson O'Reilly, who writes witty posts about New York theater and New Yorker articles -- two of my favorite topics!
  • LitDept, the blog of Malachy Walsh, a Bay Area playwright who writes insightfully about this odd profession that we've gotten ourselves into (or are trying to get ourselves into) and is knowledgeable about what's going on. It's thanks to reading Malachy's blog that I learned that Brooke Berman was in town and promoting her memoir at Borders. Merci!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

"Kissing in Manhattan": Anti-Feminist Fables

I thought that David Schickler's collection of linked short stories Kissing in Manhattan, a hit when it was published back in 2001, would be the ideal thing to read on my first trip to New York City in 2.5 years. It was supposed to be charming, capturing the romance and magic of New York. While I knew not to expect miracles from it (I picked up the paperback from a friend who was downsizing his book collection; he warned me "it's the kind of short-story collection that makes the bestseller list," by which he meant "it's relentlessly middlebrow") I at least expected to find it agreeable. Instead, it just made me angry. Despite being set in New York City at the turn of the millennium, it propounds the most antiquated ideas about gender roles.

In David Schickler's Manhattan, men are either aggressive and horny alpha males or shy nice-guy beta males. The female characters are even less varied and more stereotypical: nearly every woman in the book is a gorgeous, willowy thing in a satin cocktail dress. They do one of two things, depending on the man they're dealing with: they ache to be dominated by the alpha males, or they play perverse sexual games to humiliate the beta males.

Kissing in Manhattan is a collection of male sexual fantasies disguised as middlebrow literary fiction. And that's not what I bargained for.

The book begins with the story "Checkers and Donna," about a woman who has rape fantasies and secretly wishes to "belong to a man."  Donna finally meets her match in Checkers, a crude and loud man who drives a muscle car and is a big fan of cat-calling. I thought this story was pretty weak, but hoped it was an anomaly.

No such luck. In the second story, "Jacob's Bath,"the heroine, Rachel Wolf, is praised for being a loving and loyal wife and mother, who gives her husband Jacob a bath every night:
The woman was there to strengthen the man, to quench his thirst, and the man loved the woman and he was grateful. It wasn't about equity: Jacob never bathed Rachel. He was ready to perform a lifetime of chores for her, but this isn't about that [...]

[Rachel] told how Jacob's bath wasn't about sex, but about devotion, and love. She even admitted, because she thought her friend needed her to, that Jacob had once had an affair, an affair she'd known about the entire time it went on. [...]

"The bastard," whispered Susan.

Rachel stiffened. "He was home every night for his bath."

"But he lied to you! He was cheating!"

Rachel stared at her friend, who didn't understand men.

"I was devoted to him," she said evenly. "I was his wife, and I loved him. The affair stopped."
This angel of wifely devotion and forbearance is contrasted with Susan, a New York Times journalist, whom the narrator denigrates for having pursued professional success instead of marriage and family:
She was well into her sixties, and she'd never married, or been to Disneyland, or learned to sing. Instead, she'd drawn a bead on the large, savage habits of the globe: murder, extortion, hatred, crimes against women and the earth. She'd stared long at these awful truths. The problem was, as Nietzsche said, when you look long into an abyss, the abyss also looks into you. That New Year's morning Susan March made a terrible realization: she craved baseness. Some fiber of her soul longed to kill, as Mr. Bruce did, or to cleanse countries with napalm, or to be taken viciously by a man on the steps of a church. Not only did Susan want these atrocities, she wanted them so badly that she'd never erected the means to fight them off. She had no husband, no children, no balm to ease her days. And her arrogance, her pride in her lifelong, clear-eyed independence, died hard that New Year's morning.
And it goes on from there. A story about a gorgeous paralegal who gives her employer a bad case of blue balls. Several stories about Patrick Rigg, who ties a different naked, beautiful woman to his bed every night.

Schickler got his book deal for Kissing in Manhattan after his story "The Smoker" was published in The New Yorker. Taken on its own, "The Smoker" is indeed a pretty great story: funny, absurd, good dialogue. But in the context of Kissing in Manhattan, it comes off as just one more sexual fantasy. In it, a nebbishy 31-year-old English teacher at a private girls' school gets invited to dinner at the home of Nicole, his brightest student. Then Nicole's parents announce that they want to arrange a marriage between their daughter and her teacher. Nicole is not as powerless nor as submissive as some of Schickler's other female characters, but she's still too good to be true: a beautiful, brilliant 19-year-old who just wants to make her lonely English teacher happy.

Of course authors should be allowed to let their sexual fantasies inspire their writing. But I want them to be honest that that is what they are doing. Ideally, they'd even be smart enough to interrogate their fantasies and assumptions, to ask why men and women are drawn to dominance and submission and erotic games.

The magical-realist tone of the book somehow makes its retrograde ideas about gender even less palatable, because the author seems to think he's being charming rather than gross. Misogyny is bad enough, but whimsical misogyny is the worst.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Get your "Arabian Nights" tix now!

Interrupting my break-from-blogging for a quick announcement.

Tickets to the special presentation of Mary Zimmerman's The Arabian Nights just went on sale at Berkeley Rep. I saw this show two years ago and it's one of the most gorgeous pieces of theater I have ever seen. It truly feels good for the soul. I can't wait to see it again (I will be sharing it with my parents when they visit me over Christmas).

These tickets are going to go FAST, so I urge all Bay Area theater lovers to seize the chance to see this beautiful show! You know I am not usually such a shill... but for The Arabian Nights, I will happily make an exception. Don't miss out!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Autumn in New Yo-o-ork...



...is where I will be for the next few days. My first trip back to the East Coast since I graduated from college!

Back on Tuesday.